2015

This will be my first blog for 2015. Most of the people around me are surprise that I'm working in this age but not study. I'm officially working as a scrub nurse in operation theater for almost 9 months. Well, is hard to adapt to new environment and working culture, but thanks GOD that GOD had been guiding me all the way on. Through mistakes I learned to accept, through success I learned to be humble. =)

In this new year I plan to travel around and enjoy my life. No matter is in Malaysia or oversea, just wanna walk around and know the world better. Alone or with friends family depends on GOD arrangement. And I believe that GOD had arrange the pathway for me.

Human around me changed and I'll change too. Be more independent, treat myself better and enjoy my life while I'm still young. The longer I work, I found meaningless and lack of motivation which cause my performance drop. Wondering how my future will be, will I able to join medical missions and serve those in needs. This is my DREAM and I belive GOD will guide me to reach it. Amen !

No one can ever predict what's gonna happen next, grab every breath you can and appreciate every moment in this world. =)

the WORLD is beautiful

Just For Fun =D

Well, look back to my blog just like flashing back to my life. From secondary school scouting buddies to college besties and now working colleagues. Many peoples had came into my life, some just a short moment and some are up to years friendship.

No matter hows the duration is, I do appreciate every moment with you all. Joy, tears, happiness we went through together will be my memory forever. God bless everyone =)
Ermmm ... ...
Recently I'm trying hard to be tough and strong, but just that my tears fall down easily. Wondering can I cut off my lacrimal gland xD  (I'm too emotional) hahaha !!! 

And now I'm officially 21st yrs old and is time to fight for career and most important ENJOY LIFE !!! Planning to go oversea next year, wondering who will accompany me (coz i still single, and my prince not appear yet )>o<  

Actually I wishing that someone that I didn't chat for quite long will contact me, just hope the friendship won't break so easy... ...

Let God be my guidance in life and I believe God had arrange the best for me =D

NEW STAGE IN LIFE

Working life wasn't as easy as i thought.
One month passed, is like riding on roller coaster that  won't stop and break.
Facing the new environment and peoples around me is like a baby learn to crawl then fall for thousand times just to get to destination.

Is hard to read people mind and I have no place to talk to, to share to. A nurse life is not easy to be understand. The only way to express my feeling is just talk to God and wet my pillow every night. I know that I need to be strong to face the problem, to be independent to handle own challenge. But the reality really hits me down.

In one point of life, I feel like giving up on hope, I can't find the spirit to move on and my life seems to be mess up. That's a process of life, i think. God is working on me, for purpose.

To face it, I tell myself that to learn survival skills to be hardworking in order to success. Sometimes I just wish that there's someone who willing to listen to me and tell me that he understand. No matter he understand or not.

Life is colorful but there's still black, white & grey

OnE mOre Step

A day out to Red Box and have a break with my collegues after Nursing Board Exam...

All the songs we sang reminded me about something again...

What I can say is that every stage in life, we'll go through different events...

From stranger to friends then buddy...
But,
will the relationship last long...

It depends on how each others look and treat on it...

PEOPLE AROUND US COME AND GO

BUT MEMORIES STAY

The song below just express how it feel on it...

為什麼只和你能聊一整夜　為什麼才道別就又想見面
在朋友裡面　就屬你最特別　總讓我覺得很親很貼
為什麼你在意誰陪我逛街　為什麼你擔心誰對我放電
你說你對我　比別人多一些　卻又不說是多哪一些
友達以上　戀人未滿　甜蜜心煩　愉悅混亂
我們以後　會變怎樣　我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一點點　就讓你牽手　再勇敢一點點　我就跟你走
你還等什麼　時間已經不多　再下去　只好只做朋友
再向前一點點　我就會點頭　再衝動一點點　我就不閃躲
不過三個字　別猶豫這麼久　只要你說出口　你就能擁有我
為什麼你寂寞只想要我陪　為什麼我難過只肯讓你安慰
我們心裡面　明明都有感覺　為什麼不敢面對

我不相信　都動了感情卻到不了
愛情　那麼貼心卻進不了　心底　你能不能快一點決定
對我說我愛你

March '14

MARCH'14

Since I enter the year 2014,

I truly feel that GOD is working hard on me.

No matter what happens around me,

I knew that GOD is talking to me.

 JANUARY - being hurt

FEBRUARY - unable to accept failure

MARCH - a scene of traumatic come in to my life

No one can control your life
Appreciate all the precious moment.
LIFE IS SHORT & BEAUTIFUL.

25.3.14 031525.3.14 0315am

A voice, a light, a body, patches of blood...

Wheel rolling, cardiac monitoring, resuscitation...

Silent . . . . . . . . . . . . . . 

4 of us...

Went into Post Traumatic Stress Disorder...

Unable to sleep

Suffering from the scene

Struggling to perform well in the next 2 days...

As a leader of management,

Trying hard to pretend strong,

Pretending nothing happen,

Act cool and steady,

Continue leading...

Somehow it's hard to overcome if there's no one understand you,

support you, assist you...

No one will know how big will the impact be...

But GOD is with me !

I choose to handle with no tears.

I choose to tell.

I choose to accept the treatment.

I choose to be who am i.

I face it with GOD's words...

[ GOD only put us through as much as we can handle,

So the people who struggle the most,

Have been chosen by GOD to be the strongest ones. ]

4 of us had been chosen by GOD to struggle through this moment. No matter how tough will the process be, 

Girls : Stay strong, be with GOD, GOD will lead us through this moment. That's our faith to be a NURSE, a process to be a SUCCESSFUL nurse in world, it's GOD message to us.

Family, friends, tutors are supporting us !!! The most important is overcome the mental stress !!!

Since 2014, failure and challenges that I face shaped me to be tougher, to appreciate, to see the world positively, to smile, to love and to be focus. Thanks GOD for making me to be more clear in my pathway, my future... I know what I need now... AMEN !

Don't jealous how's other life is, coz you donno what they went through.

Start creating your own life,

Stay focus and strong,

The way of success is not easy.
May GOD bless everyone of us !

SMILE in fear
Be SHINE star in dark
Thx GOD for coming into my life
=)

 

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Sometimes, I wish that Doraemon is really exist ,

help to me control the time.

Freeze the HAPPY moment

Skip the SAD moment

Stop the ANGER moment

Play the MEMORABLE moment

My happiest moments :

• Every moment with family
• Enjoy photography moment
• Lying on bed and dream
• Laugh and shout with friends
• Outing with scouting buddies
• Jogging & other exercise
• Enjoy nice foods & coffee
• Traveling around
• Look at the view of sky & sea
• Be with someone that i lOve

QUOTE OF THE DAY : : :

Smile every chance you get.  Not because life has been easy, perfect, or exactly as you had anticipated, but because you choose to be happy and grateful for all the good things you do have and all the problems you know you don’t have.

I smile coz
DORAEMON is cutE

One of the greatest freedoms is truly not caring what everyone else thinks of you.
Be who u want to be.

thE wordS

Sometimes people are too afraid to tell the true words to the one they care,
not because of not serious,
is because they afraid that the one they care don't really care about what they think.
So, in other way they will use WORDS to tell what they wish to tell of :::

1. How are you recently ? = I miss you <3
2. What are u doing ? = I wish i was with u
3. Are u single ? = I wish to be ur GF/BF
4. You free now ? = Can u accompany me  ?
5. Pls leave me alone = I just want u to be my side
6. I can't sleep at night = Can u chat with me ?
7. I'm hungry = Can we have a date out for dinner ?
8. I don't want disturb u la = Can u spend more time with me ?
9. You're stupid =  How u gonna survive without me <3
10. You reach home ? = I just wanna ensure you're safe <3 

But don't let them wait too long...
When the day they didn't reply ur text means,
they FINALLY GIVEN UP on you...

 In our life,

we will meet 30 thousands peoples,

two people in love is only 0.000049 %

U don't love me,

never mind,
there will still someone who loves me...

Just stay calm and choose the right person.
Choose the one who care about u,
not the one hurt u most.

u pushed me away,
i'll do the same thing too.

he just took a longer way to reach your side.

Quote of thE dAy from me : : :

I just wanna be in a relationship that won't broke up !!!

我只想谈一场不分手的恋爱 !!!