bEtrAy

!!! BETRAY !!!

bEtray can happen in any relationship :

> friendship

> couple

> family

> and even thE person yOu trust mosT

Betray is just like a broken joint which you & i know that the pathway of recovery is tough and it might not recover...

Ppl are trying hard to fix it buT there's only 50% chances to recover...

Although it had recover but the scar still will be theRe and the trust will be 50% from 100%...

THE worst part is SILENT PERIOD <to talk or not>

<<< ConclusioN is >>> 

Not to trust a person so much & do not break the hopE where others put on you !!! This will cause a unreturnable damAge !!!

keeP myself a sidE from the feeling of hurT

feeling blessed

Heading back to study life after 9 weeks of posting. Flash back the life of posting actually is meaningful, helping gong gong & po po, talk with them even cry infront of them...
Really need to thx to XX popo who really encourage me,make me strong when I in stress, in a situation which tortured mE.She told me [girl ! U need to be strong, if others taught that u cant to it, U SHOW THEM YOU CAN DO IT AND EVEN BETTER THAN THEM !!!] popo, i pray for you that you will be healthy and recover soon... ...=)))

Beside that, I relly appreciate the time when i back to Ipoh to meet my lovely family and dearest scouting buddies and also EX-classmates...ThAnKs yOu all !!!
Somehow i need to reinforce that i still in SINGLE status, no BF la !!! no people want mE... ... ><

waitinG the mY mR.rigHt ... ...

Going to be in SEM5 soon...exam > events > OSCE > research > fiNal... ...

wish mE all the best in coming sem !!!  ^o^

THe daY =D

That day >>> 19.5.2013

After the conversation between you & mE in FB i actually beinG cheer by you.

THanKs =)

But i know that it won't be truth, my friends ask mE why you don't believe in him, this time he might tell you by truth heArt...

I answer :

 BELIEVE just like a glass which drop on floor and break up, it can't back to its normal.

Because of him i enjoy,i suffer,i cry,i laugh,i smile for the pasT, and our relationship is just friends and partner.
I admit that i had fall in lovE to you before, but THAT is past.
As i need to share out the space in mY heart and give to who can really treat mE and loVe mE...
I might be happy that you still will talk with me in this way but i'm sure that there's no feeling between mE & yOu... ...
Coz i clearly know the border line between you & mE !!!

We are BBF...<3 

Again all THESE are memories and lessons that i get from you.

chAngeS

Flash back to last year ... ...

mY New Year wish for 2012 is >>> not to bE single anymore =P

+ I still single and available now !!!

+ Not to force, waiting for mY Mr.Right  ^^

+ Love to bE in swEEt situation... ... 

What i had change in 2013

1.started to keep mY hair long as requested bY mY groupmates

2.become more brave in social activities

3.started to join church activities (learning to get closer to GOD)

4.not to be "chicken" anymore, tell what i think without care about how others think.

5.tryinG to accept more girls wearing >o<

6.planninG to go for travel (singapore & australia)

7.savinG money to buy DSLR Nikon D3200

8.MUST NOT BE ROBOTIC NURSE, LEARN ABOUT ALL THE patient's CASE

9.STUDY HARD AND OBSERVE MORE TO BE A GOOD & EFFECTIVE NURSE

10.HeADINg to mY dreAm >>> secreT

  Being single is a good feeling, no drama or heartaches. On the other hand, it gets lonely and you miss that feeling of being taken.

NovelS

Recently i'm addicted to reading [GIDDENS] novels...
My friend told me that who likes to read novels are the person who don't like the real world, they enjoy to stay in the novels world where the story that written is suitable for them and they feel comfortable when reading it...
WELL !!! i admit that i perfer to stay in the wording world rather than in this cruel world. 
But i still will always remind myself that miricle might happen to mE just like the character in novels right ? Somehow the world still full of fun, sad, angry, betray, loyal and etc... ...
In the story line of novel is about other ppl TO create own story line I will make my liFe more interestinG and now just about mY work or carrer...


I'm GOING to explore the worlD and create a beautiful pathway for my lifE and even combine all the world pieces and form an unique picture that is special to mE !!!



aLL life is an experiment.
The more experiments you makes thE better you are.

I love my mum & dad

It had been a long time not updatinG my blog since my dearest CAMERA dissapear from my life...=(

I had just done my semester 4 final test, and now waiting for result. After exam the first thing i do is RUN back to my dearest home to gather with my family.Although is just 24 hours time in IPOH, but it really helpinG me in releasing stress. Took 14oohrs train back to Ipoh reach there 1630hrs, then the next day take 15oohrs train back to PJ. 

Well, most of them will said that i'm wasting money for not more than 24hrs in home. BUT, SO WHAT ??? i really miss home , stressful life in TTCL is not everyone of u will understand !!!

When i went home, mum cooked dinner and after that i enjoy dessert by watching movie <CZ12> with my lovely daddy, it had been a quite long time that i didn't really spend time with him. DADDY I LOVE YOU =)

Besides that my mum will be very BUSY when ever i go home, as she need to full fill my request to cook this and that in time so that i can bring back to KL..>< MUMMY I LOVE YOU TOO, UR FOODS IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD...=D

NOW i'm back to the cruel world which i need to work in hospital for the cominG 9 weeks !!! tomorow i will be working in DSU (Day Surgery Unit) !!!

Pray hard that all the thingS will be just finE  =)

I'm lOst

I'm lOst...

lOst in thE wOrld that i been live for 19 and a half year...

I trust everyone beside mE,

I try to protect them being hurt...

BUT yet the wOrld is cruel...

I realise thAt if wanna forget something that you really care is much difficult than you force yourself to dO somethings that you reAlly hAte...

Everytime i will tell others "past is past just forget it and move forward"

But when it comes to me i only realise that how difficult to forget and pretend nothing happen before...

Sence of LOST...

No matter is your loves one or ANY things...

When it LOST it really will hurt your heart without reason...

Because you care, you appreciate, you lovE it...

That's why it's not easy to overcome the feeling...

AND now this happens to ME...

I cried and even nightmare because of iT...

I told mYself that miracles might happen or timE might turn back...

But all this is just a silly reason for me to escape from the truth...=(

I hope that time can bring away the SADNESS...

I hope that i can replace it with others (but i can't)...

I hope that mY memory will delete the scence that i hAte...

I hope my brain will be under control and stop thinkinG about it...

PIGGY is still waiting for the miracles happen on hEr...=)